Crawling

[taoren33]

My first ever fanfiction! Enjoy!
INCEST/SHOUNEN-AI
Part 1, Chapter 1, Section 1
Jun's Point of View

Crawling in My Skin

Jun silently stepped into her brother’s room, as heavy breathing echoed throughout his enormous chambers. A gym, a kitchen, a guestroom, you name it, Ren had it. Jun sighed.
At times Ren appears a tad selfish to the untrained eye. But that isn’t it at all! She thought indignantly. I fear for him. He always maintains the same glacial, coldhearted exterior, but he is my brother, and I know better than that. I know him better than that. Ren is different, very different from how he presents himself to the world. We were taught that feelings are weaknesses that will destroy everyone and anyone, so Ren denies his own to no end. God only knows what chaos is ensuing in that boy’s mind. Puberty is hard enough without withholding your own emotions. What Ren needs is a…a friend. Yoh and the others hung around for a while, but after the Shaman tournament, everyone ceased visiting, perhaps in part due to Ren’s awful temper. And yet, he has been behaving in a peculiar way. He blushed when I suggested he move in with the Asakuras, stammering some crap about his duty as my brother. Ren is fully aware that I am sufficiently capable of taking care of myself. But I didn’t interrogate him further. There was another reason. Ren is always up to something. Oh, I forgot something, or actually, someone. You see, Horo had not given up on Ren just yet. Despite the obvious disdain shown to him by my baby brother, he has managed to stop by the hotel each week, bearing a grin and occasionally a small gift. Horo calls every night, also, when and if he remembers… It’s not like I eavesdrop or anything. It would be rather difficult to not overhear their… loud conversations. And despite all the insults my brother hurled at Horo, or perhaps, because of them, he has a soft spot for his Ainu companion. More than he would admit to, anyway. And I don’t question Horo’s fondness for my little brother. No one sticks by Ren for this long unless they are either insane, suicidal, or a rabid fangirl. Horo, well, most call him crazy, or just plain stupid, but I think him brave. Brave, risking injury by befriending a heartless fiend, as Ren is referred to, when Anna isn’t occupying that title. Brave, daring to do what others could only dream of, or scoff at. Brave, to love Ren.
“Sweet dreams, Ren,” she whispered into the darkness. The silk sheets rustled, and the moonlight streaming through the window illuminated Ren’s bare chest before Jun clicked the lock behind her and strode down the corridor to her room.

[Jr.]

That was great. I should really brush the dust off my fic and start writing again!!

You've inspired me!!

[nielrian]

Inspriring, indeed! Now I want to write!
Great job!

[taoren33]

[glow=red,2,300]Incest/Shounen-Ai[/glow]
Part 1, Chapter 1, Section 2
Ren's Point of View

Crawling In My Skin

Unacceptable. He shivered, skin prickling with the repulse he felt.
Damn it Ren, pull yourself together! He exhaled, Calm down, its nothing. A crush, perhaps, if that. A tiny fragment of affection. But for Jun. For my own damn sister! At least it is only a crush. Jun gracefully stepped into the room, the moonlight illuminating her delicate features. I love you. Damn! But, it is true. I have fallen head-over-heels in love with my seventeen-year-old sister. If only you weren’t so…intoxicating. I look at your slim, curvaceous figure, sighing, forgetting my troubles. Damn you Jun, you are the trouble! You have to wear those revealing dresses, and of course, had to invite me into the hot springs to join you. I didn’t know you were stark naked! I thought that you would ask me to look away so you could preserve your modesty. When you stood up, I nearly passed out! You are flawless. I could have had you then and there. It would have been easy to take your precious virginity and lose my own. But, I love you. That alone stopped me. I could never do that to you. I would rather die. Because I love you. You are so naïve, and yet, I know that you will be aware of this soon. You are always striving to be two steps ahead of me, only to realize that by the time you are there, I am already gone, ahead of you. So it is, and so it shall be. I guess that’s what sisters are for. But I cannot allow this incestuous lust to escalate any further. Yet I could never bring myself to eliminate my sister and thus, the source of the problem. The only option remaining… of course, why didn’t I see it before? I will remove myself from this equation.
Jun’s soft voice bid Ren sweet dreams before exiting soundlessly.
She’ll never know how sweet… he thought, longingly.
“Bason!’ he called, urgently.
“Yes, young master?”
“Go.”
“Where? How far away?”
“To the Ainu. Return in precisely one hour.”
“Of course, Master Ren. At once.” He floated away, obediently.
Ren smirked. Everything was going to plan. Bason did not question his orders, now to destroy the evidence. He had an hour, no more, no less. 60 minutes of solitude would not arouse Bason’s suspicions, he probably thought Ren was going to meditate for awhile. Ren slipped out of his king-sized bed, and letting the light from the stars guide him, he found a box underneath his bed, tidy and neat, except for a red X scribbled across the lid. Ren glanced at his stomach, at a severe scar inflicted a couple of weeks ago, remembering his rage. He emptied the contents into the fireplace, watching the smoldering photographs, journals, and tapes burn to ashes. He turned away reluctantly and pressed the third button from the left on a sleek gold remote and one drawer slid out from his nightstand. He strode over to it, viewing a velvet encased ceremonial dagger, encrusted with rubies, pearls, sapphires, diamonds, and emeralds. He clutched it in his palm, where it gleamed as he hesitated for an instant before decisively thrusting the blade through his arm. Fresh, warm blood spurted from the gaping wound, and he grimaced in pain before hastily scrawling a last message to his sister in his own blood, on his own skin.
Dearest Jun,
I am furious at what I have become. At who I have become. I am furious at myself for allowing my feeling to dominate me. He shifted the dagger so that he was now writing upon his chest, bleeding profusely. This is the best way. No longer shall lust control my thoughts and incestuous dreams that haunt my sleep and make my life a living hell. You are free now Jun. I was a burden upon you, and now that you are free, I do not want any tears shed. It’s my time, and I chose .I chose, Jun. Even death shall succumb to my will. He inhaled a few ragged breaths before signing his name on his other arm.
Your Brother,
Tao Ren
He plunged the dagger through his chest, peering at the clock.
Five minutes left.
He half-heartedly mopped at the pool of blood surrounding himself with his shirt, attempting to erase every trace of himself from Jun’s life.
Better off…without me.
He fell onto the bed, blood seeping through the sheets.
Jun, you’ll understand…
The door was wrenched open, and as his vision blurred, he saw the Ainu, his eyes widening in shock.
I told Horo to never come back…Did he forget?
“Ren!” he yelled, the last sound Ren heard before he felt a strange falling sensation.

[mllamble]

Waaah! Ren Died. Nooooo!

[Renluver]

NOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!you cant make Ren die!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Remember he's already died once, he doesn't have to suffer again!!!!!!!!!!

[Bluehairedhorofreak]

I apologize for her spazzing.

[Renluver]

yes I'm sorry if you got insulted, I went crazy
but great fic, I wish I could write that well

[taoren33]

I wasn't offended, but thanks for the compliment! ;D

[Renluver]

YAY! now updates please I wanna know what happens